I used to think that emptiness was something that needed to be combated at every second of the day. Feeling empty? Shoot someone a text. Feeling empty? Go out with friends. Feeling empty? Flip on the TV and fit into that narrative. Emptiness feels scary, unless you have dealt with it before. Or, at least, know where to turn when you feel it.
The act of Silence + Solitude is a tricky beast, and one that I’ve been struggling with the past ~ 7 days. While it wasn’t easy, the uncomfortable has rooted me in the fact that it is oh-so-necessary to be able to thrive in this world. I realized quickly that the more uncomfortable you are in S+S, the more you need it. And boy, do I have the highest need of all.
Whether you are an introvert or extrovert, you more than likely have an immediate gut reaction (either positive or negative) to the words, “Silence and solitude.” For all of us introverts, that sounds like a breath of life in a world where alone time is far more filling than crowded get-together’s. For extroverts, that might be your worst nightmare.
I’m embarking on an eight-month journey through the Spiritual Disciplines, as outlined by the life of Jesus- diving into each one and examining where it lands in Scripture, my life, and modern-day society.
In college, I had an existential crisis. It’s easy to say now, but it really rocked me for a few months. I had chosen what I knew was a safe career path, and I knew I would be making great money. Fall semester of my senior (fourth) year, I was sitting in my Tuesday 2PM class and was struck by the thought, “You’ll never be happy doing this the rest of your life.”
"Yet I am confident I will see the LORD's goodness while I am here in the land of the living. Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently on the LORD." - Psalm 27:13-14 - Honesty time: I suck at patience. Even more honesty time: I think you do too.