Recently, one of my mentors asked me to sit and take some time with Jesus and let him determine my season. We as humans are so quick to label ourselves by societal standards, and she wanted me to take some time and allow him to name me, rather than me name myself.
I’ll admit, I’m the first to label my own season without consulting God, and more often than not it’s easy, go-to phrases to articulate what’s going on: “I’m in such a busy season,” or “I’m in a transitional season” are my typical answers. And while, yes, I am busy, and yes, I feel like I’m in a state of transition, those answers haven’t really felt enough in terms of where God actually has me, in this exact moment. So when she asked me to do this, I was PUMPED…and heard something completely different than what I thought I was going to.
God told me that I’m in a season of Steady. I had a picture of a sailboat, in the ocean. Waves were crashing all around, but the boat was at peace, right above the waves. And when I looked up, I realized that the anchor was heading upward, not down into the sea. It seemed as though it was anchored in the clouds rather than in the chaos below it. The boat was aware of what was going on around it, but it wasn’t rooting its peace and safety in it, it was rooting it in a power greater, and above.
And that’s how I’ve been feeling lately. A lot of things have been going on that have added to the chaos of my life in terms of family, friends, health, finance, and overall direction. It’s been a bit crazy to say the least, but overall, I’ve been at peace. Peace in the sense that whatever happens, my safety and identity are preciously held in heavenly places. And that I don’t have to worry, because the Father who is greater than it all is on my side.
If you had asked me 6 months ago to do this same exercise, you would have had a completely different picture painted. One of chaos, one of sadness, one of feeling worthless, one that was missing deep rooted peace + joy only obtained through the Father. I didn’t just wake up one day feeling peace. Peace is cultivated though relationship, not wished into existence. It takes working through what is putting you through chaos, and coming out the other side of it. It’s a journey, but it’s never a journey alone when we partner with Jesus.
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