“Yet I am confident I will see the LORD’s goodness while I am here in the land of the living.
Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the LORD.” – Psalm 27: 13-14 –
Honesty time: I suck at patience.
Even more honesty time: I think you do too.
I think we all are deeply-rooted in a soul-devouring impatience. We want to graduate- quick. Find a job- quick. Get married- quick. Have a baby- quick. Get to “good”- quick. And impatience isn’t bad! It assists in the evolution of life- the fire burning within us to do more and to be more. But here’s where I find the problem-
Jesus is in the waiting. The Holy Spirit is in the slowing down of our brains long enough to be thinking of nothing, and then giving God the space to show us what is important.
It’s patience, sitting in silence + solitude, actively listening while intentionally planting yourself, immovable to even the most exciting of invitations from the outside world, and internally listening to the invitation of Jesus to sync your thoughts with the most interior of your being.
That’s why this is the verse of the month(s) for both June and July. In June I took a step back- from writing, group activities, and my phone (failed more often than succeeded, but it’s all in the intent) and sat in more silence + solitude than I’ve ever done before. I’ll be giving more insight into what that looked like for me (spoiler alert: it looks different for everyone) later on this month, but what it really fed into me above all was patience. Patience in God’s timing, patience in my growth, and patience in the world around me. The fruit of that was twofold- one, I saw the Lord’s goodness more clearly than ever before, and two, I saw the corruption of humanity more pronounced than I’d ever spent time looking into. Again, I’ll go into that more later, but overall- waiting patiently on the Lord allowed me to be more patient with myself and the world around me- a renewal of myself in the most tender and intimate of ways.